Until

Dear Anonymous,

First of all I want to say sorry If I am already making you uncomfortable with my actions, I promise to stay discreet with my actions and your identity as well. I really hope the good times would be back where we could talk to each other out of the blue without you thinking that there's a motive or something. I asked you one time if you know me? I got a reply. I'll reply sana and come with you during the ride and talk about things I haven't told you pa.

I hope we could spend more time with each other, and will let you know of how everything is at this point in time. I know it would already be close to impossible to bring back the companionship and friendship we have before this...

I was always thinking of the time when we could go out and "hang-out" and that would such be a delight. I was also thinking of the time were we could sit down relax talk casually, and maybe stare at you all day, looking through your eyes, asking how you see mine. I also remember a time when we were talking about our preferences. You told me that I was looking for a greek goddess, and I told you that you were looking for a greek god that doesn' even exist, as for my part I would like to say that a greek goddess doesn't exist as well UNTIL I MET YOU. Each time we don't talk would both be pleasure and pain for me, pleasure in the sense that I still have time to construct and organize my thoughts, so if we talk I don't get lost I don't confuse you with words I say.

Corny man ako, pero damn! gugustuhin ko nang maging corny habambuhay kung totoo naman lahat ng sinasabi ko! As I always say, if you need someone to kick, to punch, to curse , tell your frustrations o ano pa man, dito lang ako always open to talk, I'm willing to open up my ears, my mind and most especially my heart to you.

take care and love you much!

Sherwin

broken sonnet

Dear Anonymous,

By now, I know you would already be reading some of my simple letters to you. I would just like you to know that I am still alive and kicking, yes, they say that love is cheesy in some ways but that makes it more interesting. Everytime i don't see you around it seems like that i am no longer comfortable. There's something missing, medyo corny pero totoo pala. I wouldn't mind if you're now looking on a different perspective, the more you don't realize my presence the more i can still see your other side. Sabi ko nga in my earlier shoutouts in facebook "Mabuti nang ganito tayo.... dahil mas napagmamsadan kita mula sa malayuan" yeah, I know it would sound stalkerish already, pero wala lang. you wouldn't mind naman? dahil di mo naman pansin talaga.

Just want to share something, I was in an fx the other day and a very special song played on the radio, wala lang. the plucking of the guitar and the way champ sings it. It seems na sobrang mahal lang niya yung tao. Well, I'm into too much hale and mymp songs since we talked. sabi ko nga sa'yo don't mind me. I'm just like this everytime...

By the way here's the lyrics of the song:

Broken Sonnet by Hale (Isa lang masasabi ko, the best pa rin ang first album ng hale!)

And now I concede on the night
of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And now I will admit in this fourth line
That I love you, that i love you

I don't care what they say
I don't care what they do

Cause tonight I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side

The clock on the TV says 8:39 p.m.
It's the same, it's the same
And in this next line I'll say it all over again
That I love you, that i love you

I don't care what they say
I don't care what they do

Cause tonight I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go, will never let go

I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go, never let go

But still I see the tears from your eyes
Maybe I'm just not the one for you

With high regards,
Sherwin

Love Letter

Dear Anonymous,

Thanks for appearing in my real world today. For sure it would be such a long one but just seeing you doing your own stuff would make such a big difference. I know maiinis ka na naman, pero okay lang at least alam mo nag-exist pala ako at the first place. There's so much stories I would like to tell you, unfortunately a lot of things happened in the past weeks kaya di kita masisisi. honga pala, i would be changing my number really soon from smart to globe so me and my friends could text regularly as well as you. I hope you don't forget to smile kahit at least once a day lang. I know it would help you release your tension. Remember that i'm just around the corner and you as well in the corner of my heart. Will write to you again tomorrow.

take care and God bless!
Sherwin

White Marble Flooring

Here's the aftermath of ondoy's very fierce rainfall last saturday:

This is suppose to be our living room's white marble flooring, now it's underwater and those white boxes in the upper right part of the pic are kitchen cabinets removed to be used as sort of "scaffoldings" for our more precious stuff, and yes, we now use a hose to get potable water for laundry, washing dishes etc. Thanks God I'm still way LUCKIER compared to others who experienced WORST harshness from Ondoy! Let us all pray as a nation that we will survive this catastrophe, pero bilang pinoy yakang-yaka natin 'to we're already tested in these types of situations. I still hope that everyone would still be optimistic cause as we always say, there will ALWAYS be sunshine after the rain, literally. =) Good night everyone!

Revolve Around the World Item # 3

There are a few people who thinks that the world revolves around them. Say for instance, Kanye West, he's been an awards show-crasher for a few times, and he thinks that it wouldn't affect his popularity which includes his album sales, contract deals etc. but we'll see in a few months. But whatever he does still doesn't affect my delight over his songs, they are somehow of substance over other rappers. Another perfect example would be Megan Fox, for having a rude exchange of words between her and Michael Bay (director of Transformers). But that doesn't still remove the fact she's HOT!

Moving on a more localized and very personal note let me start with friends. Friends are there to understand you. Friends are there to listen to you. I don't care really how i project things, but that's genuinely me. I hate being misinterpreted and misunderstood. I really don't understand how people think of themselves too much. People who thinks that the world revolves around them. Take for instance, I had a situation where some of my friends would ask me if i really have feelings over this classmate of ours which they (unbelievably!) thought for a long time. Me as honest that I can be really denied it because there's nothing to admit. I really don't get the point of admitting something that you didn't really do or in this case something that you don't have (feelings). I look upon her as a friend who turned to someone whom I already do not know already. Time may be the suspect. I get the point that maybe I have fault over this. But i do think the whole blame shouldn't be accounted to me alone. AND JUST IN CASE, this is just a part of a game to embarass me to everyone, that I play the part of someone hoping for something to that person and she just laughs at me saying that I don't have any chance on her. WELL, screw whatever happens! I'M MAD, i know but this foolishness has to end. Anyways we don't like each other. She has her preference and honestly di ko talaga siya type (forgive me for being rude) x(

Really Hard Item #2

It's really hard when you get to that situation where people accuse you of something that you really are not or something you didn't do. It's really hard that people do misinterpret you in countless ways. It's really hard for you to understand because all odds are against you and every action you do will be perceived improperly. Why do people still push forth things that are way too impossible to achieve or in a better view, difficult to fathom...




...Sometimes, just like some things in life there's no need for an explanation.

On Humility, Users & Frustrations Item #1

I really hate people who are users, i mean users in their own understanding, nakakainis talaga...I mean everyone's living in a utilitarian world but to some extent we have to manage these people because as everything, every single entity, non-living or living should have a saturation point.

Humility is a measure of breeding. I certainly believe that these is applied to everyone else, that's why up to this constantly changing era, there is still a great barrier between educated or not, rich or poor and for me properly educated and raised and IMproperly educated and raised.

Have anyone been frustrated in their present engagement or relationship. I cannot speak of this because me myself is not involved in a relationship at this point. I don't care how people treat you or how they perceived you. What I really care about is that why are you doing these behind your loveone's back. I think you are just bitter and have regrets with all the "present" that you have. Bakit di ka pa rin tumitigil. We were supposed to be closer as friends but with what you did, everything failed. You had been a great barrier and i think will always be as soon as I am here and you are still frustrated. You think you're great! well, that's what you ONLY think, and i definitely beg to differ in a million ways.

50 days and another stage of my life comes. I want to be antisocial, I want to hate everyone because i believe its very healthy. Everyone wouldn't like it. I know. but like everything else we shouldn't be fixated and be stagnant. Everything else develops rapidly.

countenhear

1,2,3 I was counting lizards on our ceiling
I hear noises from outside
Noises that will be part earth’s horizon
Off as my light went out…everything was hidden on darkness

3,4,5 I was counting advertisements on tv
I hear dogs barking, and cats meowing
The sofa was soft as I was lying
Watching shows that networks do for living

6,7,8 I was counting text messages on my mobile
I hear my keypads being pushed as if they were spelling out
every letter i put in.
The bed was ready to be laid on but i still refuse.

9 and 10 I was counting how many hours have passed and I still think of you
I hear the alarm waking me up and saying a bright morning
but every day that passes, 1-10 would still be 1-10 if only you were right here with me...

....then every number wouldn't be the same

bro/ken hearted

she was my world were all the things are in their right places
she was the one who puts glimmer in my eyes,
she was the panacea for a lifelong of unbearable venom
she was the missing piece in my life's puzzle

one day i realized that such move can be risky
risky that it can break us apart,
apart where hatred and pain are sandwiched by life's destiny
destiny, yes destiny that is not for us, but for her to someone else

if ever i knew that things would happen this way
then, i should've waited longer, where everything else were ripe
ripe, where it can be picked and be enjoyed by two
the two whom equality of love and comfort will be a commitment

every woman i see, i see her in their faces
a face that i know will remain up to my deathbed
remain not only because of love but more of pain and disappointment
pain and disappointment that will remain as scars in my mind

now i see she's in cloud 9, in someone else's hands
dynamites keep on exploding up in my mind down to my heart
the reason for living is not anymore important
important, because time is too short, and the venom is engulfing my whole body

maybe there is a reason , yes it's a reason why we both didn't became as one
the reason i do not know...maybe were just two opposite poles that do not collide
or there is something in me that doesn't satisfy her, or is there really more to life
more to life that she looks for, that more to life that she found with someone else,
and not with me.

No to BNPP! Yes to Renewable Energy!

One photo shown during the exhibit

During the lighting of about 2,000 candles that spells out NO NUKES in protest to the re-operationalization of the BNPP

JC & I After the candle-lighting vigil

An expectator duing the exhibit

Goal for everyone was to light a candle.
First, for the victims of the Chernobyl disaster
second to protest against the BNPP

Jc & I wento to attend the Green Cafe organized by Greenpeace, since I was a supporter for some years now, I did not hesistate to attend this one. Since the news of the re-operationalization idea of BNPP (Bataan Nuclear Power Plant) being proposed in Congress came in , I was already against it. Not only being a white elephant for some years now. It is also a reflection of an ambitious and corruption driven regime with all these years that had gone by it's ability to be safe would still be a question.

It was a day full of eye-popping information about nuclear energy, the consequences that it entails. The Chernobyl disaster has been an iconic representation of nuclear energy amd its adverse effects to humankind. A short film titled Zero Hour: The Disaster at Chernobyl was presented. The film reconstructed the minute-by-minute events on the morning of April 26, 1986. After which, a short talk was given by Francis dela cruz of Greenpeace regarding the activities the government has been doing to reoperationalize the BNPP. He also pointed out some similarities that happened and might still happen if BNPP will be back into Operations.

After which, we were guided back into the field for the candle lighting vigil for the victims of the Chernobyl disaster and the protest against the BNPP.

For more photos, please visit my multiply site

Spiritual Medicine

We've been to Tagaytay to spend our Holy Thursday & Good Friday away from Manila. (pictures comming soon on multiply) Actually, biglaan lang naman ang lakad. We were supposed to have a retreat pero ayun di na rin naayos ni Daddy, kaya ayun nag church na kami last night.

It has also been quite a while since I blogged about Lent. Pero this year had been very special for me since I never felt this energized about my faith. Quite some times, I really felt that i need to put my spirit to that "spiritual hospital" that i just created for myself. My spirit had been bruised for some time. I need to conduct a "spiritual first-aid" for myself.

That Spiritual first-aid is having the eagerness and urge to go to confession. Nothing equals the feeling of undergoing confession and telling all the things you were sorry for. It has been my habit to go to confession once a week in the Greenbelt church (Ston Nino de Paz). I've been doing this for some months already and I am encouraging everyone to actually do it. I tell you, the feeling is different. Come on! it's like 15-20 minutes to confess and it would give you speedy results.



It's better than spa and any form of exercise to release stress.



It's a good form of communication with that someone we called God.



It's better than C2 and green tea to detoxify your dirty inside.



Lastly, It's a better help for Jesus in the cross, at least the sins he needs to carry would be lesser.



I'm encouraging everyone to go to confession not only this time of lent, but everytime you need one and you need to communicate with God. Please visit your nearby parish to have a spiritual dose of medicine to your brusied spirit.



Have a meaningful weekend everyone! (Btw, the pic was taken during my flight back to Manila last February)

Beyond what is required.

I'll be straight to the point. I would be taking up my Master's Degree any time in a few months. yay. I'm super excited with this new development in my life and career, kahit mag-uumpisa pa lang naman.

Well this is pretty much an achievement on my part, since I'm known as a person who wants to finish thing so fast. Like, when I was in college, I have familiar lines like: I want to end this! gusto ko na grumaduate!..enough of the paper works, the case papers, the suuper long reading materials and handouts. hahahaha then ironically mag-aaral nanaman ako ulit.. tsk..tsk..

Course to take:

I am geared on taking a Master's Degree in Psychology (quite similar to my BA Behavioral Science Background), with concentration/major on Industrial/Organizational Psychology. as if i have a choice?!

From Tigers to _____

Well' that's unsure at this time pero I left myself with two choices, The acronyms of the first one is ***U and the other one is ***U hahaha. well, if you know me pretty much, you would have an idea which great schools these are. Pero, Ok na ako dun sa isa. Napasa ko na lahat. Magcoconfirm na lang and enroll and start na naman ng pagiging estudyante ko. I'm still waiting for the other one. still hoping and praying.

In relevance with my goal of finishing my master's degree in psychology in 2-3 years time, here's a copy of a being proposed Psychology Bill (A bill on professionalizing psychology like other professions e.g. Medicine, Architecture, Engineering, Education etc.) written by Psychologist Dr. Allan Bernardo (also one of the prominent faculty from one school of my choice, ***U)

The PAP Board approved the Proposed PSYCH BILL last May 2, 2008. It will be presented to the PAP body during the 45th Annual Convention in Davao City on August 14-16, 2008. Dr. Allan B.I. Bernardo, current PAP President, also answered frequently asked questions about the PSYCH BILL here.

Here are excerpts from the Proposed Philippine Psychology and Psychometrics Act of 2008.
AN ACT TO REGULATE THE PRACTICE OF PSYCHOLOGY AND PSYCHOMETRICS
A PROFESSIONAL PSYCHOLOGIST shall be authorized to engage in the professional practice of psychology consisting of the delivery of psychological services:

(1) psychological interventions such as psychological counseling, psychotherapy, psychosocial support, coaching, psychological debriefing, group processes, etcetera;

(2) psychological assessment or the gathering and integration of psychology-related data for the purpose of making a psychological evaluation, accomplished through a variety of tools; and,

(3) psychological programs or the development, planning, implementation, monitoring, and evaluation of psychological treatment programs and other psychological intervention programs for individuals and/or groups.

A PSYCHOMETRICIAN shall be authorized to do any of the following, provided, that such shall at all times be conducted under the supervision of a licensed professional psychologist:

(1) administering and scoring of objective personality tests, structured personality tests, pen and-paper intelligence, achievement and interest tests, excluding projective tests and other higher level forms of psychological tests;

(2) interpreting results of the same and preparing a written report on these results; and,

(3) conducting preparatory intake interviews of clients for psychological intervention sessions.


LICENSURE EXAMS REQUIRED

All applicants for registration to practice psychology and psychometrics shall be required to pass a licensure examination for psychologists and psychometricians.

QUALIFICATIONS TO TAKE THE LICENSURE EXAM FOR PROFESSIONAL PSYCHOLOGISTS

Applicant:
(a) is a Filipino citizen, a permanent resident, or a citizen of a foreign state/ country which extends reciprocity to the Philippines relative to the practice of the profession;

(b) holds at least a Master’s degree in Psychology and has obtained sufficient credits for the subjects covered in the examination;

(c) has undergone a minimum of 500 hours of supervised practicum/internship/ clinical experience under the auspices of a licensed psychologist or other licensed mental health professional;

(d) is of good moral character; and,

(e) has not been convicted of an offense involving moral turpitude.

QUALIFICATIONS TO TAKE THE LICENSURE EXAM FOR PSYCHOMETRICIANS

Applicant:

(a) is a Filipino citizen, a permanent resident, or a citizen of a foreign state/ country which extends reciprocity to the Philippines relative to the practice of the profession;

(b) holds at least a Bachelor?s degree in Psychology and has obtained sufficient credits for the subjects covered in the examination;

(c) is of good moral character; and,

(d) has not been convicted of an offense involving moral turpitude.

EXAM SUBJECTS FOR PSYCHOLOGISTS

The licensure exam shall cover the following:
(a) Advanced Theories of Personality
(b) Advanced Abnormal Psychology
(c) Advanced Psychological Assessment
(d) Psychological Counseling and Psychotherapy

EXAM SUBJECTS FOR PSYCHOMETRICIANS
The licensure exam shall cover the following:
(a) Theories of Personality
(b) Abnormal Psychology
(c) Industrial Psychology
(d) Psychological Assessment

REGISTRATION WITHOUT EXAMINATION FOR PSYCHOLOGISTS
A person must apply for registration with the Professional Regulatory Board for Psychology and Psychometrics within three (3) years after its creation, by submitting proof of having fulfilled the requirements under (1), (2), or (3) below, before the effectivity of this Act:

(1) Obtained a doctoral degree in Psychology and had accumulated 3 years of work experience in the practice of psychology in the Philippines;

(2) Obtained a master’s degree in Psychology and accumulated a minimum of 5 years of work experience in the practice of psychology in the Philippines;

(3) Government psychologists or government employees who hold plantilla positions as psychologists presently employed in various government agencies, who have a Bachelor’s degree in Psychology, accumulated a minimum of 10 years of work experience in the practice of psychology as a government psychologist, and who have obtained continuing professional education in various psychology-related functions.

REGISTRATION WITHOUT EXAMINATION FOR PSYCHOMETICIANS
A person must apply for registration with the Professional Regulatory Board for Psychology and Psychometrics within three (3) years after its creation, by submitting proof of having obtained a bachelor’s degree in Psychology and having accumulated a minimum of 2 years full time work experience in the practice of psychometrics in the Philippines, before the effectivity of this Act.

Source: http://papnews.wordpress.com/ Posted July 18, 2008 by papnews

Resurrection

I've been out of touch not only from this blog but from my spirituality as well for a few months due to so many things that happened. Basta, kwento ko na lang next time. I need to meet Mr. Sandman na. Good night everyone!