On the Treshold of Losing Good Terms

They say friendship can't be measured by anything, friendship is support, friendship is a brotherhood. having friends is an escape from nomadity, it's also a force of intertwined web of lives. when you have friends (i'm referring to the true ones) you trust them, you give your support to whatever your friend does, you look up to almost same aspirations, you support his/her abilities, talents, and endeavors (whatever good may it be), without holding back, without misconceptions, without underestimations, and most importantly without thinking twice.

The past two weeks has been so stressful to me. first, i've resigned from my current post as an officer on my organization (pax romana), and it has been so painful to me. pax romana has been my home away from home, it has nurtured me as a responsible Catholic. it has established me a network of friends, i've worked with uncomparable people who love me for what i am and for what i do. they accepted me as i was. it has been sweat and blood that has been my capital for staying in the organization. to sing doubles the prayer, that's one of the things i do in pax. (i sing for the choir, that's my service to God).

Things just came out really really fast, so fast it left me so confused and pre-occupied for almost all the time, i know that God has a purpose for putting me in this situation. the original plan for me and my classmate was to join forces and run for a position in our society (behavioral science society), my classmate as the president, and me as the vice president (juggling between ext and int). Too many uninteresting things happen, that's why i ended up running with another party (and i'm not going to tell the details here, this is not the place). Some days ago, i've talked with one my good friends regarding the feelings (side) of the class of me running instead of my classmate, she told me some good points, but of course, what made me feel a little bad, was "they had wanted my classmate more to run for a particular position in the society rather than me", it may not be verbatim, but that's what her statements scream out. Well, i'm not gonna tell keenly more of the details of our simple chit-chat..it simply boils down to the fact that i was less preferred / less wanted, take this: if the opposite happened "me telling my classmate to run instead of me" what do you think would happen?? what would the circumstances and situation be??

These are the things that i don't want to happen:

Losing good terms

Losing confidence of feelings , and trust

Destroying a bond

Ending up alone

Me against the world

I wish they could read this and see my side of the story

GODSPEED!